Consultant Happy still

Mr Merrick was really happy with my mouth. I mentioned the pins and needles, to which he said it was probably scar tissue, building up around the nerve. I told him it was painful, and that I could cope with it. He wants to see me in 8 weeks time.

I have been having a constant ache in my stomach/chest sort of area. Its been there for most of the last three weeks. I cant make my mind up whether its the lining of my stomach thats been aggrevated by my aspirin. Or whether its my muscles in my chest. I've put it off for a few weeks and have decided today to see the GP at 4pm. I am hoping its just stress related and nothing more. Obviously, being a cancer patient, it doesnt take much for the brain to run away with itself. Is it my heart? Do i have an tumour in my stomach? Are my lungs playing me up? etc etc.
It doesnt wake me at night, its just there when I get up in the morning, exactly the same as when I go to bed. Food doesnt aggrevate it, neither does alcohol.
Of course it could be down to being overweight and just putting a strain on my body.

I am off work this week, and not really had much time to myself, thankfully my boss doesnt want me in until next Thursday, so it almost runs into 2 weeks . . . she is so kind!!

Oh by the way, I havent taken a Prozac since 20th October

Ups and Downs

Life at home, has become rather stressed.

My son has split with his girlfriend, leaving a 9month old boy between them. Obviously my son and both myself and my hubby still want to have access to him. Which at the moment is not very forth coming.

My hubbys employer has changed, and we are still awaiting wages due to him since July.

My health is ok - I hope
I had my flu jab on Monday, and I have my check up at the hospital next week. I have noticed that recently, every time I move my tongue over the right hand side of my mouth, I get a 'pins and needles' feeling all across the lower part of my jaw. I am assuming that is the nerve doing that. I will ask my consultant on Wednesday.

I have decided that I am too overweight. I must do something to try and reduce it. I love my food and have a very sweet tooth. I do walk to work every day, but that is about all the exercise I manage. Course, having no boobs makes my belly look even bigger than it really is ....

Good News

My part time temporary job, became a permanent part time job today. I am really pleased, the bunch of girls I work with are great.
I am so happy

Please Help

Can I ask a huge favour

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/save-quaywest-107410081024-fm
Please sign the above petition, to attempt to save something very dear to our hearts
Sue & Dave x

Prozac

Today I decided not to take my Prozac. I am going to take them every other day for a week or two, and see how I go. With the hope of coming off them completely.
I do feel quite positive at the moment, what with the new job and new friends, I am enjoying life at the moment.

Hubby has decided to take me off to London for a few days next week, we are currently looking at possibly going to a west end show ... not sure which yet! Any recommendations?

1 hour 15 mins

I completed the Midnight Beach Walk in 1 hour and 15 minutes. Sam (my boss) and Kira (daughter in law) took part with me too. It was a clear night, with a full moon.

There were over 1300 women taking part, alot of which were wearing flashing rabbit ears. With both me and Sam dressed in our outfits, which seemed to cause alot of publicity.

I have managed to raise £350 for the local hospice - which I am really pleased with.

I am now about to crawl into bed!

Sponsor Money goes up!

Doing brilliantly so far with the sponsorship.

Have currently over £300 sponsorship, which £130 has been made online
www.justgiving.com/susanenglefield

Would be fantastic if we could top £500!

Thank you to all those who have sponsored me so far xxxxxxx

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Fame at last !

I had three different sets of photographers come into the opticians yesterday, from different newspapers and they all had me posing in my bunny outfit. I have persuaded my boss to join in with me, and I am able to borrow another bunny suit for her too.

I was VERY brave yesterday. Although I attend my NHS dentist regularly, I dont feel they are doing their best. It was me who had to point out about the lump in my mouth and insist that I was referred.I also need a filling, and its only recently that I can open my mouth to the full extent, to allow this to be done. So I registered with a private dentist. I have an appointment next Friday afternoon. I am also going to ask if they can do something with my two front teeth. I chipped them at the age of 16, and thats the way they have stayed. I know it will be expensive, but perhaps spread over a length of time will be more manageable.
By the way - I dont like dentists at all!

Fancy Dress Costume

Today, I have borrowed a pink fluffy rabbit costume from a friend, to wear for the sponsored walk.
I hope it doesnt rain, as I will look like a drowned pink rat!

Please sponsor me

http://www.justgiving.com/susanenglefield

Another check up!

Went to hospital this morning, for my monthly check, due to the hospital cancelling my appointment it was 7 weeks since I was seen last time.
Mr Merrick was very pleased with me and said everything had healed up perfectly well, no further bumps and he would see me again in 6 weeks.

I have also registered to take part in the Weston Hospicecare's Midnight Beach Walk 2008. It takes place on Saturday 13th on the seafront. I'm hoping to raise lots of sponsorship money!

My job is going fantastically well, I am really enjoying it. The girls I work with are really friendly, and it is never too much trouble to give me a hand/advice. I am truly grateful to my boss, for giving me this opportunity.

I went to visit one of the lads who was on my 'old school bus' today. He was so pleased to see me, I will miss him, as he was on the bus right from the start of that 5 year job.

Counselling free

I started my new job last Saturday. I am really enjoying it. Alot to learn, but all very interesting.

I went for my counselling session on Thursday, and she was so pleased with me, that she doesnt want to see me any more. She feels that since passing my driving test, my confidence has grown tremedously. I do agree with her, although I do try and 'face my fear' rather than hide away from it now.

I am working 23 hours this coming week, and I expect I will be exhausted by the end of it. But I feel like a new person. Someone who is doing this through choice and not through necessity.

I'm back to see Mr Merrick (Maxillo Facial surgeon) on Wednesday 20th August, for my monthly check-up

The last Month

July has been quite a good month for me and my family.

We went over to Spain and stayed in a lovely place, weather was fantastic, accommodation was brilliant and we all came back home with a healthy suntan.

I applied for a different job, and have been accepted. I start this Saturday, in a local opticians.

My twins are both now working quite a few hours, whilst on the summer hols from college, and everyone is happy

My grandsons are growing and are both adorable little boys, who I love spending time with.

I did receive some bad news recently, a cyber friend of mine passed away, unfortunately her cancer had spread too far. She was only 32.

I attended A & E after a suspected DVT. After blood tests, ultra sound and Clexane injection, I was declared clot free. I have been left with a massive bruise on my tummy from the jab though - but rather that, than the consequences of a blood clot.

I'll try and not leave it quite so long before I post again.

Driving myself!

I'm off for my monthly check up at the maxillo facial clinic tomorrow, but this time I am driving myself there.

Also due to collect my new prosthesis too, so I shall have a nice new pert pair of boobs tomorrow.

Fingers crossed all will be well, and I will then be able to enjoy my holiday. Off for two weeks with the family from Sunday, for a well deserved break!

My Beautiful Grandsons

New Grandson - James, born 14.06.08

We had grandson 1 - Riley (born 16.01.2008) to sleep last night

Monthly checkup

Mr Merrick must have been on holiday today, as I had to see a different doctor. But he was very pleased, could find no trace of recurrance and was very pleased at how quick I had healed up. Will see me again on the 2nd of July


I also drove home from Taunton (12 miles), and we arrived home in one piece!

Confidence Boost

Well I have been given the biggest confidence boost ever this morning. I managed to pass my driving test (4th attempt) - I am so chuffed!

Back from Counselling

I just got back from counselling, and we went off on a tangent today. We spoke about my cancer, and my fear that it will come back. We spoke about the way it has changed my day to day life, and how I wish I could box it away, and move forward.

I explained how I felt about M.I.N.D. and that it wasn't the right place for me to be. But as my therapist said, It was a case of trying and finding out.

I told her how I had been for a job interview (which I didn't get the job) and how I have my driving test later this week - all steps in the right direction.

I have started reading 'Feel the Fear.... and Do It Anyway', which was recommended to me by a friend. A very good read, about confidence and self esteem

I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow, for a review on the Prozac. Which I feel are doing me the world of good. My head is not so jumbled, and I am able to make proper decisions once more.

Not much happening

Been a fairly dull couple of weeks really.

Haven't been back to M.I.N.D. since 2nd May, due to stomach bug, and had something planned for last Friday.

Had to cancel my counselling appointment too, due to bad stomach.

Had another funeral on Wednesday, and a driving lesson on Friday morning.

I have applied for a new job - fingers crossed, cos I think I need a change.

I can get 23/24 sticks in my mouth now - which I am pleased about. Still a bit numb in the cheek area, which I keep biting.
Prozac seem to be working wonderfully. Not getting too stressed over anything now!
Life is improving and I am beginning to enjoy it once more.

Hospital Check Up

I had an appointment with Mr Merrick this morning, at 9.45. DH managed to record the last part of his show and come with me.

We went in about 20 minutes late. Mr Merrick was pleased to see me, and asked me how wide I could open my mouth, he was happy with the result

He examined my neck and face, before looking inside my mouth. He had a good old feel about and said although it was hard and lumpy - it was only scar tissue.

He wants to see me in one months time. Monthly appointments will occur for the first year!